Let me prove to you.

If you have to guess if this is for you, it's not.

I'm counting sleep, I'm losing sheep.

Sun down Sun up
I speak in sarcasm to relate to all the things I appreciate
I lie in rhythm to open doors I follow suit and just want more
My reputation is the same its been and I don't care what happens
I read the book so I know the end
I've probably said too much
But I've never felt more accomplished
I'm losing sleep
I'm losing friends
I've got a love hate love
With the city I'm in
I'll count the hours
Having just one wish
If I'm doing fine
There's no point to this.

Throne/Thrown

I am so close, and I can't let anyone get in my way. I wish I could sleep tonight, but I have clamped my eyelids open.

I am scared, and anxious. I think it is right under my nose.

Heels.

Starting my placement on November 2nd at Malvern Collegiate Institute. It's some upper-middle class school located at The Beaches. It apparently has the best English program in the city, and it was given some peace prize for practicing global education and diversity within the school. Wikipedia tells me Alex Trebek, Kiefer Sutherland, Keanu reeves, Glen Gould, Don Getty, and Norman Jewison all graduated from Malvern CI.

So, it's fair to say I am pretty excited? If I get a good evaluation and reference here, I will be an extremely lucky girl. I am going to work my ass off. I have already started shopping for my wardrobe (so many pencil skirts, menswear blazers, and pumps). I am so excited to get dressed for "work" everyday. I want to redefine the idea of an English teacher. I want kids to know you can listen to Black Flag and feel disdain towards general society, but still find the merits in high modernist literature (just try to tell me T.S. Eliot didn't loathe the system). But seriously, I want to inspire and be inspired my entire life.

Maybe this shoe finally fits.

Downtown Owl.

Black is the new black.

Cellar Door.

I hate knowing that I will never be the first.

Artisan.

I love it here. I love my neighbourhood, and I love my house. It's so funny how a change of location can make you feel alive again. I love Hamilton, but I was so sick of big fishes in a small pond.

Starting school soon, and I am a little nervous about it. I can't wait to really focus on my program and my placements. For now I am remaining unemployed, but there is a chance of me working on Queen Street if I find that I have enough time. Working at The Sil, having a retail job, and being a full time student throughout my undergrad has shown me that I really can balance a lot all at once. I like that about myself.

Getting a cute bike soon, excited to ride around the city in dresses. I get really excited about small things, always. I like that about myself, too.